My Manipulative, Toxic, Lying, Cheating Whore
A decade plus, reduced to nothing. Countless hurdles, a hollow testament. The growth an illusion. As it started, it ends, nothing left but a brutally broken and poisoned heart. Yeah, I know how ugly this sounds, talking about someone I supposedly loved. It's fucking ironic, writing these words now, knowing there might be some twisted future where I'd call her the woman I wanted to grow old with. Love? Insane is more like it. I love her as much as I fucking hate her right now. I want to despise her for every bit of this agonizing hurt and pain I'm drowning in. I want to wish death on her, just to make it stop. But I can't. All I can fucking manage, all I can gather the courage for, is just cursing the ground their new relationship walks on. I just hope to God she wakes up one day and sees the monumental, soul-crushing mistake she made. This hurt isn't just gonna disappear. I know some of you reading this will think I'm immature, or overbearing. "Relationship...